Wednesday, August 31, 2005

And quietly flowed the tears...

It happens to everyone or so I was told.
Though the degree and intensity and even the reasons vary to alarge extent for different individuals.
It happened to me and I was caught unaware.
I thought I was brave , I thought i was immune to such weaknesses, but I was wrong. Oh I was so wrong!!! Years of failure and pain had taught me superficial indifference.It was my fear disuised as bravado that made me callous and careless I believe. My mistake!!!! Realisation dawned -It's nice to be nice to others-everyone. But not at the expense of your own happiness.But the deed is done, cant be undone.
But the pain remains, the hurt remains and oh the burden of having to keep a facade of normalcy. I wish I could just cry my heart out ,scream and let all the steam out of my system. Instead I remained at my desk, fighting back my tears, but they wouldn't listen. And quietly flowed the tears..........but nothing changed............